Yup!

Shit aint been on this shit on a hot one

hahah So today i’d like to say i am strictly fucking tired of the fact that this bitch that acts like a guy has a big mouth!!!

BITCHES ARE SEPERATED FROM FEMALES.

i respect every female and girl out there, but if you must act like a bitch out of hand for no apparent reason then fuck that!

goodbye and thank you

BABE!

Babe, yesterday we hung out, we watched dispicable me though you already watched it lol. But, the cute thing was it was with my nephew. You know, theirs so much stuff i can say aabout our relationship, and just us in general. I remember day 1, ahaha when i first tried to get at you 3 years ago, but it didn’t happen. But, for some reason you were always the bestfriend i needed. You were on the phone listening to my bullshit when you didn’t even wanna hear it. You dealt with me getting mad at you like we were in a relationship because you didn’t tlk to me lol and we were just friends. Months came by, days and year. then spring of 2010 ahaha for some reason i realized i wanted soemone so special. I would always talk about how girls would fuck me over, how i wanted that special one to keep putting a smile on my face even if i was psst the fuck off. I realized babe it was you, since day 1 you were there for me no questions asked fuck the bullshit. You were my everything this whole time since the beginning. I know Monday night was a hectic night, and i honestly can tell you why deal with me? But you tell me, “babe I’m your ride or die, i’ll always be here!” Babe, that touches mmy heart youve done so much to be in this relationship. I know i sometimes say i don’t see efffort, babe i seen so much i never really bothered to look at it. I expected to much, and now i’m done expecting so much. I’m always gonna be here im your ride or die. Ill be here in pin or anywhere ill be there by your side. Keep your head up and dont stress ill change baby<3 And you’ll be right there beside me right? =] Thanks for everything baby i love you so much..

One thing i learned is. Dont expect so much from the person you love. Yeah if they don’t put any effort at all hell yeah get mad. But, if that person showed you a love no one can ever show you.. Even if they psst you off…. You gotta realize they get you mad because they love you..

“No one is perfect, you gotta love them for who they are!”

Cindy Nugyen. I love you so much thanks for all you’ve done<3 since day 1.

4/13/2010<3

a big fuck up!

Last night something bad happened, a lot actually! i dont know what happened, and why it happened. I guess the anger i have inside, the grudges, and guilt, and sadness i just kept it bottled in and all came out yesterday. Regret is regret, i dont plan on getting forgived, i dont plan on being a bitch and trying to win everyones friendship. I made a mistake, and I learned something and how much i coulda lost the person i love the most last night, but most of all i couldve lost myself! What i do everyday? What i tend to always do? What i love to do? Thats all changing i cant go the same road the way i did last night, whether its just for fun or with family„ i cant! If i lost the most important person in my life today right now! my life is nothing because your the only person that made me like this and I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER FOR THAT! im not going to beg you to forgive me or to anyone. Im sorry from what i did, and we all can walk away from this yet you guys stayed there and i appreciate it. Its my fault, I had no reason, and i got the consequence of that. Im through with what i always did everyday, and im walking away as a person knowing what i got myself into whether anyone is there by my side or not. but thanks and sorry!

day 1 starts today</3

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sometimes I wonder if people love each other so much they would change.. too bad I don’t know…. sometimes I wanna give up but I can’t. Hope you change

SIMPLE EFFORT

“YOU WON’T KNOW WHAT YOU LOST UNTIL YOU’VE LOST THEM”

Before i start off this long ass tumblr. Just to whoever that’s in love. Just, realize this yo! Show the person you love everything, evne if they get you mad love em like no other! Just hear them out understand what they’re trying to say.

Never take someone for granted. Love is a great feeling but it can be the most bullshit feeling ever. Just gotta learn how to swallow up your pride, anger, and just realize that theirs no reason to fight. Their are reasons why people trip, then change for them if you really love them. A question to ask all couples if the person youre with was to walk away from you, Would you chase after them? Would you give up on them? Theirs always that saying if it was meant to be, if you really love the person you say you love. No matter what the situation would be, you would chase after them becuase you wouldnt want  to lose them. Feeling empty, feeling like shit, feeling like the other half isnt there anymore. sucks. Yoiu tried for so long just so you can see some effort, and it still isnt there its really based on the fact like this….

You’ve put all you can, even if it was too much. Now its the other persons turn, love is love. Sometimes you need to change for that love to continue on. Theirs so many things you can say and can do to just make the love flow. Remeber this you can only put so much for the other person to tryh to be on the same page and if not all you can do is wait. Id rather stay in love then fall in love all over again. Youre a big impact and ill always have you inside my heart. lol remember you my baby girl ;]

Never take the person you love for granted…..

a question i ask myself?

When it all comes down to this world of emotional and ppasionate affection. What many people always say, “They’re in love” The question i may only ask myself is what is love? Their are no definitions that i could explain, because everyone has their own definition unless people are falling in love with THE SAME PEOPLE! People start to wonder are they really worht it? Do they feel like they are worth it? To top it all off, does the person show them they are worth it? BEING HURT CONSTANTLY, FUCKING HURTS! its no joke. Sometimes you wonder why be here and just keep getting stabbed in the heart, or feeling like your heart just jumped off the cliff and feeling like your heart is nowhere to be found? When it comes down to it, its just the fact can you deal with the persons pain that they give you? Now, people shouldnt give you constant pain becuase that fucking hurts, and no need of that. In relationships, people somewhat do have to make sacrafices, and if they can’t whats the point of being in the relationship? Have you ever gotten hurt so much, that you should leave that person but you dont? Leaving a person just because they get you mad is stupid, look like that one song says, “Id rather have hard times with you then have good times with someone else!” Everyone that is in love with someone, tend to have this action to fall for someone else when that someone else makes them happy. Thats dope i guess in your perspective, but look when your with someone for so long, you have this tendency to get attatched. Its like YOU NEVER WANNA LET GO. and you know those promises you always make, Always and forever, keep it never let it go. Show the person you love that though they may hurt you and make you feel like you just wanna die and go away or feel lonely and not talk to anyone, in the end ask yourself are you doing anything wrong? or ask them why do you keep hurting me? Relationships are never fucking perfect, it hurts nbeing in one, but its the best feeling ever. Really the thing is you have to ask is, Are you my ride or die the way you say you are? or are you just bullshitting your way to have me your bitch? Everyone has problems in relationships, solve it yo. Becuase the best feeling in a relationship is knowing that the person your with is happy with you, but most of all you being happy with them. Sometimes i feel like i wanna have this pathway to the moon, and be able to walk in the sky sit on the moon and kick it with the stars lol, you know why? because everytime you look in the shy the moon shines bright, and the stars twinkle with light and it seems like they are so happy up there? I wanna ask them how can they be so happy, teach me their ways.. Because getting hurt is not the best feeling. But i really cant ask them that.. its really based on me…. now the ending question is am i worth it? or am i just a joke?